Life As I Know

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Crappy heading. I don't know what I’m doing. I’ve been the laziest person I know, and hey, I am lazy. OK, I think everyone knows that by now, including my teachers. FML!

Anyhow, the last week, all I did was get up, go to college, come back, watch desperate housewives/gossip girl and back to bed. I only ate once. Hello! I’m on a diet. That’s right. I’m already less than a size zero, and yet I’m on a diet. Its not that I’m gonna be a model or anything, but I love being skinny. And don't give me crap about health benefits, my dads a doctor. I’m super emo right now. Also I have an assignment to finish by Thursday, and even though I think Apple is a great company, its too much geeky for me. hmph

The only good thing that happened was that I got a 95% in before final exams in accounting, which means I’m the top of the class. I feel OK. My parents doesn't. But then again, I don't call them mom and dad for nothing.

My computer broke, and I cant go online, since I’ve already maxed up my WModem. FML, and now I’m exceeding it, and the bill is probably gonna be like thousand times higher, and then Id have broken a promise. FML 

Also I have been spending way too much money on useless stuff, including paying for juice bills for my friends everyday. I just don't like asking people for money, but then again, I don't want to only buy juice for myself, that would be too selfish. I’m not sure what people in FMC already think about me. I don't want them to think I’m a snob who only has a good sense of fashion. FML

Also yesterday someone came to me and told me that some guy wearing a yellow T shirt (don’t get too excited. Guys I know dont even like yellow) came and asked for me, and told that my boyfriend was in an accident. I donno but I suddenly felt sad, only later did I realize that I dont have a boyfriend. My life is practically over. Thank god for my sense of humor and Ok-ish acting skills I was able to get out un-embarrassed. FML

And I so want to go to my island on sem break, but I’m broke, and I don't want to ask my parents for money. Whenever I thought, back when I was 13 till now, I thought that when I’m eighteen, I’d not be asking my parents for money, and would be studying with my own money. I also thought I’d be at Princeton, but some dreams take a long time to come true. And now her I am, eighteen years old, no job, and living off my parents. FML

Also thanks to the freaking stupid timetables here, I cant even get a good job, and then I’d be stuck to babysitting. FML

I dont even remember the last time I went shopping, cos that was so long ago, and now I just wear the same things over and over again. FML

Good thing is, I cleaned up my room, and it’s beautiful, I had all this makeup a stuff everywhere like in magazines, and today found out someone broke my favorite Lakme’ nail polish. FML

I hate when people come and meddle with my stuff. I’m just too nice. My parents are to blame, they taught me manners.

I’m sure you’ll be feeling emo too after reading this, and also I’d like to say to my mail buddy, sorry If I dont reply to any mail. I’ll ASAP. Promise.

This post should’ve been named FML, but I’m lazy to rename it. FML!

The Debate

I am in no means of actually making a political debate, but since this is my blog, and I can write whatever I can as long as it doesn't violate any religious rights I am going to say something about what's going on.

I may be the last one to hear about this, but I don't really care. I somehow am ashamed that I know so much about British Parliament, and yet I don't even care about our own. I agree, I’m not a very patriotic person, but I’m only 18, so you cant blame me. I am yet to learn. Right now I have more than important mathematical formulas to learn than by heart the gaanoonu asaasee,>.<

So, my point being that I think it’s really really unfair and very irrelevant that they are making Islam and Dhivehi optional for A level. I’d be over cloud 9 if they did that last year, but then again, I’d study it, not because I somehow always seem to think my parents would disown me if I didn't. But they wont. They'd get a heart attack if they even knew its what I think. I just like thinking negative at times. It helps me getting. Also, by now you may have notices that I like drama.

So, the big deal is not that the subjects are not important. Hell, they are. I mean I learned so much in Islam, about vaarutha mudhaa and all, and I can proudly say that I now know 16.5 more percent about my religion than I did before A levels. And I also like to think Dhivehi is also very important. Of course Harvard or Princeton or even Open University Malaysia wouldn't check whether you got an A in A level Dhivehi or not, but as a Maldivian who’s proud of who I am, I think having studied A level Dhivehi makes me more self confident, and hey, I can kick butt of those who didn't study A level Dhivehi. haha

Anyhow I also think it’s kind of setting a lower standard. 5 subjects are so less, and yet making 2 of them optional just lowers the standard lower than the dead sea. I wasn't happy with the 5 subjects. I thought I had more potential, so I studied 7 subjects. And I can honestly say my high school years were a challenge. I has fun, and I studied all subjects that a student is allowed to. It didn't matter than I had more homework, more class time, or more exams than the rest, it made me confident. It helped me become more organized, manage time, and be more alert. (Please excuse my current habit of procrastination. It’s not cause I’m lousy at time management, its’ cause I'm a Maldivian, We all know Maldivians are like that. Just kidding!)

And by making it optional, do they think students will go and take them? Having been a typical high school myself I can honestly say we studied it only because it was mandatory. It was what made our grades low, what made us not get 1st place at top ten. I myself got B’s in both subjects. I didn't try my best, and I wont lie. So, basically are we going one step back, after already taking 3 steps forward? I thought there was no looking back! Guess I was wrong!

I personally think they shouldn't make it optional, at least Islam should be kept mandatory. If you wont study Islam in high school they you wont study it after that.

Ps sorry about no picture. I’m at PC, and I’m too lazy to get to lap to get a picture.

Simplicity

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Simplicity is one thing I loathe. I don't like simple. I’ve always had problem with simple. I am complicated. And I like things to be complicated. But that doesn't mean I don't try simple once in a while. One thing that I absolutely hate to hear from anyone is to say that I’m simple. I donno how people try to judge me

Some people think I am a nerd. I’d like to think myself so, but no. I’m only good at studies because I try at the last minute, and I never give up. Some people call me a geek. I don't even know why they would, since I am no good at computers either. I love computers though, but I cant even connect a keyboard wire to the system unit, even if my life depended on it. That's how a lame geek I am. No, I’m not a geek actually, so stop calling me one.Some people call me drama queen, now that is one thing I am. I love drama, I love the emotions, the fights, rivalry, jealousy, anything to do with too much drama. But mostly, I am just the one watching it, and not creating it, unless I think the world around me is too boring, only a creation of a drama will work.

Most of my “type”s have been related to what people think about me. Uptight, “Foni”, selfish, proud, crazy, good, friendly, talkative, kind, are also a few. I think its quite true. Of course I am foni, and I think people should have a bit of selfishness in them. This is life, not a reality TV series, and people who are not selfish are rather rare. I’ve been not selfish till I was 12. That's when I decided I have to think about myself, and put my best foot forward, and I am proud for what I have turned to be.

I know I am boring you with my selfish self talk. Sometimes I just have way too many words.

Anyhow, Life have been pretty well, average, and SIMPLE. of all things simple, and so, I plan to make it complicated. Tangle.

Dream Crushers

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When I was 5 year old, and in grade 1 (I was given early admission since I was a born nerd), my teacher asked my class to write what we wanted to be when we grow up. I’ve never wanted to grow up, because I always see grown ups serious, and sad, and miserable. I didn't want to grow up to be a miserable old person. As usual preschoolers, my classmates wrote different professions. Some wanted to be doctors, some teachers, some nurses, and a few pilots, and even one principal. I however wrote that I wanted to be “Happy”. My teacher asked me why I wrote that, and that it’s not a profession. I knew it wasn't. I said that I don't want to be a miserable pilot, an angry doctor, or even a rude and stupid teacher, and that I’d rather be a happy housewife. My teacher said that I’d get a zero, and If I wanted my marks, I should change it.

Few years ago, I found the same book at my house (my parents are such sweet people they kept all my school books) and I found that I didn't change it. I felt proud. I felt like I was such a special person even when I was a kid. I kept my dream,and my teacher kept her marks.

And Insha Allah, I grew up to be a happy kid. I try my best to cheer people, to live life to its fullest, and be like a ray of pure sunshine spreading happiness. And in future too. I want my future to be happy, and bright, not dark, and miserable. Some of my classmates back then, now live life in very unhappy conditions, and I don't regret getting a zero at all. .

On a different note, my younger sister Muntha had another experience like this. When she was in kindergarten, her teacher too asked her to write what she wanted to be. She always wanted to be a nurse, so she wrote nurse, and the teacher told her that nurses can make mistakes that may lead to people dying. she was so sad she cried the whole day. We tried telling her it was wrong, but she believes that teacher could never lie. I couldn't change her. But she’s a smart kid, so I’m positive she will later realize this.

Here is a notice to all teachers, grownups, and people who play with kids: Don’t be a dream crusher. Don’t try to play with little kids imagination. Let them imagine, let them breathe free. Don't destroy our tomorrow. Just because you are a miserable old person, don’t let them suffer. It’s not their problem you’re not happy

American Pie and Submarines

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Everyone talks about how I should watch American pie, so I watched the first part, and slept halfway through it. Boring. And last week, I was so bored I watched the rest, and when i got to part 4, Band Camp, I instantly fell in love with it. And since then, I’ve watched it 6 times in the last two days. and I’m intending to watch it again next week. Too much homework right now plus I don't want to make it boring by watching too many times.

I’ve been quite busy the last few days, with yesterday having to spend almost more than 10 hours in college. OMG.

I so wanted to skip class, but went to find it cancelled. And yet Ainth, and I stayed, and went to library and looked through catering books, and college survival guides which gave me an idea to write my own FMC survival guide and hide it in library. LOL And then I came back home, and watched Band Camp one again. haha. Had to go back to college again for a Muggle studies lecture, and had to see muggle underwear sneak peek. Sheesh! At least she was wearing one. so, it wasnt half bad. I tried my best to well, fit in and answer the questions, but either the teacher never heard me (I was almost shouting) or she completely ignored me. Anyhow after that, Nash, Ainth and I went to Dinemore and had submarine. We called people, had fun and walked back to FMC. I asked my room mate to bring my lap, and he only bought the lap, and no charger. FML. and so, I had to carry a dead blitzy all around the place. Then I had account class, where I was almost dozing off, and then came Econ lecture where the teacher showed us our mid sem marks, and I got a B. )= I haven't felt this sad in a long long time. I couldn't even be happy for my classmates who got better marks than me. wtf! Also nash is now Nashfit, Ainth is Made in China, and I’m Sem. haha. Sem ftw!

So, that was the highlight of the day. And today was well, better. But I am too sleepy, so I need to doze off.

Hey May

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I am having the laziest days ever, so even the goals are lazy. It’s just the same as last month. gee.

1. Pray regularly

Keeping faith is what I need at this time, and always.

2. Write on diary regularly

For the last few days, I used to write in diary regularly, and now I’m lost yet again. gee

3. Study according to the study schedule

My study schedule looks promising, but only if I ever decide to follow it.

4. Do more chores at home

Being a Cinderella = someday I’ll get my prince.

5. Do All Assignments

I have like 4 assignments, and I’ve only started one. gee

6. Blog regularly

And bore you till death.mwahaha

Hey, I’m lazy, and sleepy and I just finished two classes on a row.

Rainy Days and Routines

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I love love rainy days, only when I don't have anywhere to go. I love sitting near my doorstep looking at raindrops falling, and the rabbit doing what I call “rain jumps”.I love being in a taxi when it rains, and watching raindrops fall through glass, and watch people running around. I love sleeping when its raining. And I love dancing in the rain, while singing “Just singing in the rain” which is not exactly my fav song from girl guide, but it’s so relevant there. lol

But I also hate when it rains, and I am stuck at one place. The benches at FMC would be all wet, and no cleaning people will be there, and there’s no place else to sit. I donno how they can even call this place a faculty. I also hate when I have to walk in rain, in heels. Eventhough I can walk through puddles and not get my feet wet, my glasses will be all blurry and I cant see a thing.

Enough about rain, which seems to be a usual guest these days.

Today, I woke up and felt so sleepy I thought I'd bunk the class, but then I thought again, and deiced to drag my lazy bum to class, as I don’t want to be the worst class rep in the history of worst class reps. Believe me, I already am. And with my luck, just when I got ready, a classmate called to say the class was cancelled. I’ve never been this sad because a class was canceled. Anyhow, I decided to so something meaningful, like play a chocolate making game. haha. Now I have a major craving for milk chocolate infusions. hmph

Also yesterday I was uber bored so I painted my nails, one hand in Twilight Mansion the other one in Bloody Mary. I love not following the usual nail polish rule of both hands in the same color. haha

Well, I also have lots of movies to watch, write reviews, and stuff. I feel like my life isn't very bollywood after I left hfm, which sucks. And on top of that, I have two assignments and a presentation due next month, which seems  far away, but it’s not. gee. And an exam tomorrow. sheesh!

Wish me luck!

Addictions

As people say, all types of addictions are bad. They are like obsessions. But I disagree. Some addictions are good depending on how you use it. Me, I’m a cokeaholic, chocoholic, and a shopaholic. I’m also addicted to MSN at certain seasons, like this season, and I also have a gaming addiction. But, unlike other people I don’t base my life on them.

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My life, is based on me. Yes, sometimes I have this shopping mania, and go around shopping till I drop, but I also have a habit of saving. Even though mom believes that half the things I buy are useless, I have a use for them. So, in general, I am a neutral person, and what I do at one point depends mostly on my mood. I am not exactly a rebel, nor a follower, but at times when I feel like I need to rebel, I break all the rules. Some of these times I’ve regretted my decisions but I always stick to myself. Peer pressure does affect me, but only when I let it affect me. I  believe that no one can make/break your day unless you let them.

You let people ruin everything for you, and later blame them. Of course they are to be blames, so are you, for letting them. Don't be dependent/interdependent.

Live life the way you want to, cos you only  have one life, and its fairer.

I know, that was babble. I’ve had some time to realize some of the best things in life. the things that make me happy. Like seeing gummy bears in a store, little flowers on the sidewalk,strangers walking down the road smiling, and birds chirping.  Let the nature motivate you. Let whatever happens be a lesson. Stop thinking in the box. Take that box and sell it, crush it, put your shoes in it, or make a photo frame out of it. Think outside the box. Let your imagination run wild. Think of dinosaurs playing dodge ball, little girls riding forklifts, or even teapots talking. People might think you're crazy. Don’t let them stop you. It’s not your fault their life’s BORING!

Don’t make your life boring.

Height Of Procrastination

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I remember setting a new year resolution that I will not procrastinate. But, that almost sounded good until I got work to do, meaning assignments.

The last time I nearly finished the assignment on time. And I promised myself I’d finish the next one way before the due date. But, as usual, I was lazy, and now I have an assignment due tomorrow which I haven't started yet, literally. Also I have two exams this week, and I haven't yet learned for any. Gosh. *shame*

Hot To Make Boring Classes Not Boring

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1. Smuggle coke/red bull/any other drink you like and drink whenever teacher’s not looking. Don’t think of this as a rule breaking, but a new way of challenging yourself and also a way to NOT sleep in class.

2. Write lists of stuff like “20 ways to make a certain classmate angry” and pass it to your friends. Believe me, you are doing good by sharing un boringness with classmates

3. Draw random stuff like bunch of flowers, helmets, etc. Just don’t draw vaginas.

4. Sing “We All Live In A Yellow Submarine”. Not so loud though.

5. Try to imagine yourself as someone from a movie. Think of how he/she would tackle a boring class.

6. Randomly call names to find out whether there’s someone names like that.

7. Do a harry potter reference.

8. Call a spell out loud, and act as if noting happened.

9. Look at your teacher right in her/his eyes and try to hypnotize him/her.

10. Don’t come to classes you think is boring. Just make sure you get 80% attendance though.

PS, Don’t try all of this at once.

Laziness

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I have been feeling really stupid lately. Not myself, and lazy. I remember being an early birdie, and it was awesome. Now, I’m like a cat.

This is just an update for the sake of updating. I have nothing to say.

That’s the ice lemon tea I had last Tuesday, which tasted horrible.

Of Classes And Complains

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Life has been well, exciting, yet boring, yet busy. I could vaguely associate many adjectives with my current life.

Days pass by so fast I feel like staying,and not thinking about anything, but that doesn't help either. 

Thursday, I got my results, including both business and Account. I was disappointed when my classmates told the highest marks was 78, and it wasn't me. I felt like I wouldn't even check the notice board, but then again, with my curiously of the cat, I thought, hey what have I gotta lose? I might have got 77.To my surprise I got 90. I didn't quite expect as much, so went to the teacher. I should’ve followed the advice of my dear friend, but that's just me. doing what i felt like.

Anyways, its quite boring, so Friday I went to Youth Challenge, with best friends Harry, and Ty cos some of my classmates decided to bail on me. FML. Had fun there though. Became a member of Arc, the NGO for children, and also saw a great university of fashion. I’m planning to go there. Well, it’s not Princeton, and in realty, what chance do I have to even put a foot step on Princeton. None. Zero. Zilch. Nada. Nil

Saturday, I slept, ate slept, and watched Community, which is my fav new series, Jeff Winger might not be my role model since I’m not planning on flunking college. But I’ve learnt many things from that, like “Man is Evil”. LOL

Yesterday, I decided to sleep in, missing a class, and lucky me, it got cancelled. haha. I now have started to think I have Occlumency powers. >.< I did show up for the other classes, and it was boring. 6 hours of non stop lecture can make one bored/hate college forever. I’m still on the verge of trying not to hate it.

Also, Thanks to muawwaz for getting me AVMP. It was awesome. My fav line, Did anyone say Ron Weasley, and “What the hell is a hufflepuff?” fav song would be Granger Danger. I kinda like the guy who plays Harry. he looks better than Danielle “Eqqus” Radcliffe. xD

Well, I still have like one assignment, 2 exams and one presentation to go. I’m planning to make the presentation NOT boring. I’m gonna show them that internet and computing is not only for geeks. Just wait and watch.

PS, as you might already have noticed, I have a habit of posting weird, unrelated pictures. ^^

Anyway, how was your weekend?