Being Too Available?

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I don't think I’m too available. Ok, I’m single, but does that mean that? Is there anything bad with being single? I don't think so.

See, being single,

• you can flirt with many boys and never have to give an explanation to anyone
• you can spend time with everyone, and dont have to worry about what someone else might say
• you dont have to call someone every hour and let them know what you’re doing
• You can do whatever you want, and no one can stop you from going to places, meeting people, or going to number of coffees.
• you can spend more time with your girlfriends
• you dont have to cook/buy gifts.or even think about what he wants on your anniversary.
• Many more!

basically, you are your own island, and you dont have to share your island. LOL

So, until I find someone that practically well, is my Ron (not prince charming), I am happy and free to be single. And I can mingle whenever I want.

Favoritism

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The F word that’s so controversial. When you’re at the receiving end, you seem to like it, and hate it when you’re not involved. Somehow it’s not a huge problem if you’re on the giving end. However, I’m pretty sure every one of us has come across this at some point of our lives.

Some parents favor boys, others fair daughters. Some teachers favor the smart pupils, others students who they are in someway related to. Some guys favor hot girls rather than the smart and nice best friend. Some girls favor those who are bad boys, rather than those who like them for who they are.

That way even I have favorites. Some designer shoes over normal ones (but I do love shoes in whatsoever case), professional teachers over the friendly-hot ones, and talkative and fun friends over the shy and unfriendly ones.

I guess, I lost my point there. haha.

Anyhow, classes have been going well. Also did I mention we have a handsome (or hot according to some undisclosed source) teacher teaching B.Com. He’s a Maldivian, young and is not like typical Maldivian teachers. Finally, a teacher who can talk continuous in proper nice English without the umm, err and likes. However, I think he’s more of a high-school type cool teacher, rather than the professional college type professors, bur who am I kidding? My classmates, and every girl in the class likes him.

And then there’s this great teacher who teaches Marketing. He reminds me of lat sem’s fav teacher. he’s professional, mature and looks “haru”. He teaches interesting, even though my classmates would disagree. I think its because I want to experience a college life, not relive the high school days, but they don't think the same. For people who think quite different, we get along pretty well. I love them!

Btw, How do you like my new template? It took me nearly 3 hours to make. My first attempt and I’m proud.

Results!!!

Just a quick post to let you guys know that I FINALLY (gasp!!!!) got my results. The scary, long-awaited, lame college results, and I passed. Passed as in, got the highest possible grade, cos that’s pass in my parents dictionary. One of these days, I am gonna have to burn their dictionary. Anyhow, if you still dont understand what the hell I am talking about.

I got Higher Distinctions in all four subjects that I studied last semester, and tomorrow college starts. Morning classes, here I come. Sorry sleep!!!

Obsessions

Obsessions are rather bizzare. Some obsess over what they can never get, others of what they a;ready have, and dint wanna let go. Many times in my life I've had obsessions, from texting my ex-crush all the time to buying seventeen magazines and now to making lists, and doing things perfectly.

What are your obsessions?

Taking Sides, Results and Boredom

Lets start with the latter, the boredom. Before that, lemme assure you the sad and embarrassing ugly step sister lips chapter is finally over. Nudakkaa Vaahaka. Anyhow, I have been watching non-stop reruns of old series like Kyle XY and Moonlight, and also watching old movies like Tinkerbell (ok, It’s not a movie, but believe me, it’s an amazing cartoon. peter pan, who?) and Pink Panther.

I’ve always wanted to do a crazy thing like watch something back to front, and Moonlight seemed a great series, so I started watching it today (re-watching. It used to be my fav vampire series. I’m not much of a vampire fan though. I don't see any reason to fall in love with the predator, being a prey. ) and it’s fun. I recommend this to every living soul out there. haha

And then, lets talk about taking sides. I tend to take sides while watching movies, reading books, and even a bit in real life. sounds kinda normal, right? I donno, since I think normal is overrated. Anyways, the point being that I tend to take sides since the start and cannot absolutely see anything sad happening to my fav person, unless its supposed to be a happy ending. Usually I take sides with the main character, the good one just like everyone else and thus leads to happily ever after. That happened with Kyle XY. I hated Jessi since she was on that tub, and when Kyle and Amanda finally broke up, and all, I just couldn't watch it. Then there's the weird sides, like Taking sides with Sharpay (the evil one) in High School Musical, Actually I hate ZANESSA, so it was easy, but the bad part was that the were the happy couple, supposed to get the happily ever after. However I still remain a fan of  Sharpay Evans, the girl who can do no wrong.

And about results, FMC is the lamest faculty in the whole world. Second semester starts in 5 days, and results aren’t up yet. Gosh!!

PS. Those ugly stairs there, they are my fav stairs in the whole of HFM. God, I miss that place. *sobs*

The Ugly Step Sister

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I have some good news and some bad. Lets hear the bad news first, since I am in a very very pessimistic mood. Last two days, my lip has grown double its size due to allergies. I am not sure what I’m allergic to, whether it was food or the lip products. dad says I should stop using any lip products. gee. That’s like saying you shouldn't fly to a bird. hmph!

Well, on the other hand, the good news is, I got full marks in accounting. YES PEOPLE, full marks. I am very happy, and proud of myself. haha. I am no nerd, but this feels like a nerd moment.

Lately, I’ve been watching reruns of Kyle XY, reading my old diaries to try to relive the good old days when I was 17 and didn't care. I feel so horrible, thanks to my ugly step sister lips, and it hurts so much too . I can hardly eat/drink/talk, and yet I have this wedding to attend. hmph

Free As A Bird

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That’s right people. Finally I’m exam free, and thus tension free, that is, till 16th, cos that's when the results will be shown. Today’s exam was so so easy, and I am hoping to get full marks, and then I can prove to muntha that getting full marks is possible even in college. hah. what a great sister right? T__T

Other than that, I also am getting internet, xD and thus no more blogging pauses, and well, I haven't yet decided whether to go to my island or not. But the holidays would mean more sleeping, and eating ice-cream, less dressing up, etc. Somehow I am not exactly excited for the hols, but its ok. I’m not even making sense right now. gee

PS, Blogger’s note: I am not a twilight fan. In fact I hate it, and since it isn't good to hate something without reason, I bought this book to find out the crappiness of it. Also note that I hate Kristen and Robert, but have a soft spot for Taylor since his Shark boy days. I know, I know, I have to put manners first even when I hate something. haha

Three Days To Go

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Yes, and in three days time, I’ll be free from exams and finally able to think freely without economic situations, import tariffs, or income statements coming up to my mind in every two seconds.

Last few days has been hectic. One exam after other and all, but it has also been so much fun, going to college everyday an un-shahaish hours( which is anything before 1, since however hard I try, I never seem to be a morning person. some habits are hard to go), and playing truth or dare, and finding cute boys, which seems rare in FMC.

I am also trying to ignore the fact that almost all my friends in other faculties have finished their exam and is now on vacation, and I still have two to go. gosh!

But I am bound to make it happen.For now, things that make me happy are:

1. Happy and cheerful Mickiie

2. Finally having my huge bed to myself

3. good classmates

4. Homemade fish and chips by neighbors

and things that make me feel miserable are

1. Exams, and how I am so not prepared

2. Friends on early vacation

3. severe small yet painful medical conditions

4. losing my library card (Mickiie is to blame)

5. losing my organizing and being perfect self

6. no internet at pc

7. the fact that Mickiie tore my bebo poster

8. not being able to go shopping ( I am going mo, seriously!)

I am feeling twice more miserable, and that makes me be moody, but since I am good at acting (believe me, I am) I can still look very very cheerful and happy, but then again, who am I fooling myself?

Kicking The Exam-ass

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The title credit goes to my mail buddy. Last few days were hectic, studying and studying, and to find out that actually only few things I studied came, and most others were like general geek knowledge, which I am no good at. I’m not even good at g.k let alone geek g.k, so it goes without saying that I sucked. big time. –_-

I am hoping for a distinction though. I think I just blew my chances at HD, or maybe If I am lucky enough, I’d get it. So, in honor of the rest of my exams I decided to study. Well, too late at it. Gee

Tomorrow I have Business Maths, one of my fav subjects and well,one I score really high. I just hope that I can cover doing all the tutorials by tomorrow. And also, I woke up just now, so now I’m stuck at home babysitting, and my friends bailed on me, and went to college to study. hmph!

I am however making plans on sneaking out and going to my island. That’s one of the things on my bucket list, and even though my Mom and Dad will be cross for like sometime, I can take that. As people say “You will need to make some compromises if you run after your dreams”, and OK, I’m exaggerating a bit here, but then what’s new with that?

Lil Old June

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I have always liked the month June. Maybe cos I like June. If I had a gay bestfriend I’d name him June. LOL. Anyhow, I have been MIA from blogging, thanks to W modem exceeding the limit, and PC crash leading to daddykins getting the most antique chassis, which cant connect to net. wtf. I am trying to use more IT related big words, cos tomorrow is my Comp exam, which I’m hoping to rock. And by rock, I mean get a Higher Distinction, the highest possible grade in college life. gee. So, moving to this month’s goals, which are a bit different from last months.

1. Study well for the exam

As I’ve said before tomorrow is my exam, the start of the two week studyathon, which will keep me busy and very very tired. So, be ready for very emo posts. xD

2. Pray regularly and recite half of Quran

Reciting the whole Quran at least once this year is also in my resolutions, so I’m hoping to achieve it.

3. Do my own laundry

I am more of a room service kinda person, that's mostly because my parents spoil me. I never have to do my own laundry, and sadly, I cant even seem to. But at least I know how to operate the washing machine, so this month, I am getting in the housewife spirit.

4. Don't procrastinate

OK. I agree, I’m probably the queen of procrastination. Did I tell you I bunked a class so that I can get more time to to do the assignment which was due at the end of class? god, those were the horrible-st of times.

5. Be friendly and nice

I don't know why, but people seem to associate “not friendly” and “thui” with me. Ok, I agree, I tend to be thui at times, also my voice is thui, and no, I’m ok with it, and I don't want to change my voice. But then again, I seem to try to be the friendliest, but people seem to still think I’m unfriendly. hmph

6. Never sleep late and wake up early

Even right now I am preaching this rule. LOL. time to become a morning person once again.

Lets hope this month, I can keep to my best behavior.

Life As I Know

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Crappy heading. I don't know what I’m doing. I’ve been the laziest person I know, and hey, I am lazy. OK, I think everyone knows that by now, including my teachers. FML!

Anyhow, the last week, all I did was get up, go to college, come back, watch desperate housewives/gossip girl and back to bed. I only ate once. Hello! I’m on a diet. That’s right. I’m already less than a size zero, and yet I’m on a diet. Its not that I’m gonna be a model or anything, but I love being skinny. And don't give me crap about health benefits, my dads a doctor. I’m super emo right now. Also I have an assignment to finish by Thursday, and even though I think Apple is a great company, its too much geeky for me. hmph

The only good thing that happened was that I got a 95% in before final exams in accounting, which means I’m the top of the class. I feel OK. My parents doesn't. But then again, I don't call them mom and dad for nothing.

My computer broke, and I cant go online, since I’ve already maxed up my WModem. FML, and now I’m exceeding it, and the bill is probably gonna be like thousand times higher, and then Id have broken a promise. FML 

Also I have been spending way too much money on useless stuff, including paying for juice bills for my friends everyday. I just don't like asking people for money, but then again, I don't want to only buy juice for myself, that would be too selfish. I’m not sure what people in FMC already think about me. I don't want them to think I’m a snob who only has a good sense of fashion. FML

Also yesterday someone came to me and told me that some guy wearing a yellow T shirt (don’t get too excited. Guys I know dont even like yellow) came and asked for me, and told that my boyfriend was in an accident. I donno but I suddenly felt sad, only later did I realize that I dont have a boyfriend. My life is practically over. Thank god for my sense of humor and Ok-ish acting skills I was able to get out un-embarrassed. FML

And I so want to go to my island on sem break, but I’m broke, and I don't want to ask my parents for money. Whenever I thought, back when I was 13 till now, I thought that when I’m eighteen, I’d not be asking my parents for money, and would be studying with my own money. I also thought I’d be at Princeton, but some dreams take a long time to come true. And now her I am, eighteen years old, no job, and living off my parents. FML

Also thanks to the freaking stupid timetables here, I cant even get a good job, and then I’d be stuck to babysitting. FML

I dont even remember the last time I went shopping, cos that was so long ago, and now I just wear the same things over and over again. FML

Good thing is, I cleaned up my room, and it’s beautiful, I had all this makeup a stuff everywhere like in magazines, and today found out someone broke my favorite Lakme’ nail polish. FML

I hate when people come and meddle with my stuff. I’m just too nice. My parents are to blame, they taught me manners.

I’m sure you’ll be feeling emo too after reading this, and also I’d like to say to my mail buddy, sorry If I dont reply to any mail. I’ll ASAP. Promise.

This post should’ve been named FML, but I’m lazy to rename it. FML!

The Debate

I am in no means of actually making a political debate, but since this is my blog, and I can write whatever I can as long as it doesn't violate any religious rights I am going to say something about what's going on.

I may be the last one to hear about this, but I don't really care. I somehow am ashamed that I know so much about British Parliament, and yet I don't even care about our own. I agree, I’m not a very patriotic person, but I’m only 18, so you cant blame me. I am yet to learn. Right now I have more than important mathematical formulas to learn than by heart the gaanoonu asaasee,>.<

So, my point being that I think it’s really really unfair and very irrelevant that they are making Islam and Dhivehi optional for A level. I’d be over cloud 9 if they did that last year, but then again, I’d study it, not because I somehow always seem to think my parents would disown me if I didn't. But they wont. They'd get a heart attack if they even knew its what I think. I just like thinking negative at times. It helps me getting. Also, by now you may have notices that I like drama.

So, the big deal is not that the subjects are not important. Hell, they are. I mean I learned so much in Islam, about vaarutha mudhaa and all, and I can proudly say that I now know 16.5 more percent about my religion than I did before A levels. And I also like to think Dhivehi is also very important. Of course Harvard or Princeton or even Open University Malaysia wouldn't check whether you got an A in A level Dhivehi or not, but as a Maldivian who’s proud of who I am, I think having studied A level Dhivehi makes me more self confident, and hey, I can kick butt of those who didn't study A level Dhivehi. haha

Anyhow I also think it’s kind of setting a lower standard. 5 subjects are so less, and yet making 2 of them optional just lowers the standard lower than the dead sea. I wasn't happy with the 5 subjects. I thought I had more potential, so I studied 7 subjects. And I can honestly say my high school years were a challenge. I has fun, and I studied all subjects that a student is allowed to. It didn't matter than I had more homework, more class time, or more exams than the rest, it made me confident. It helped me become more organized, manage time, and be more alert. (Please excuse my current habit of procrastination. It’s not cause I’m lousy at time management, its’ cause I'm a Maldivian, We all know Maldivians are like that. Just kidding!)

And by making it optional, do they think students will go and take them? Having been a typical high school myself I can honestly say we studied it only because it was mandatory. It was what made our grades low, what made us not get 1st place at top ten. I myself got B’s in both subjects. I didn't try my best, and I wont lie. So, basically are we going one step back, after already taking 3 steps forward? I thought there was no looking back! Guess I was wrong!

I personally think they shouldn't make it optional, at least Islam should be kept mandatory. If you wont study Islam in high school they you wont study it after that.

Ps sorry about no picture. I’m at PC, and I’m too lazy to get to lap to get a picture.