Friday, February 19, 2016

Thoughts on being 24

I just turned 24 yesterday so perhaps this should be thoughts on not being 23 anymore. 

I've always felt like I was growing up too fast, being with people 2 years older than me most of my life. It never dawned on me how much of an impact this had on my life. Being 23 felt like going through a roller coaster of everything. One moment, it all seems like you have your life figured out and the next it's as if you don't know anything anymore. 

You will lose a lot of people you were close with, it's inevitable. Maybe your values don't match or maybe you just don't feel like certain people are needed/wanted in your life anymore and it doesn't bother you anymore. Sure, you see them on Facebook getting on with their lives and you feel content knowing they are doing good but you don't feel the need to actively participate in their life. You're an onlooker and it doesn't affect your life anymore. 

You will gain a few new friendships. It's slightly harder to make friends as you get older because you realize the value of developing and nurturing friendships and sometimes you just don't have the time or energy or will to start a fresh foundation. You might still find people who click and makes it easier to include then in your life. 

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You will realize that people can't be there for you all the time. That thought will first haunt you, then make you feel miserable but you will understand it when a friend asks you to accompany them somewhere but you can't because you have work and despite all that sayings that talk about how you should take time off to be with people who matter, you won't do it; and for a couple minutes you will feel bad but you'll realize there will be times other people will do that for you and that friendships are not always about sacrifices. You won't feel disappointed when people can't make it there for you sometimes because later they will surprise you by being there when you need them the most and you'll do the same. 

You will still carry regrets of everything you did in the past and I wish I could tell you it will be easier; it won't. On the bright side, you will be cautious. You will give people second chances because you'll no longer believe that people are only good or evil. 

You will learn to take more chances. You will take risks and you will be more open to things and people. You will also be more cynical and think a lot of negative thoughts about people's intentions and the world. You will find yourself hating on things just because other people do, but you'll also find yourself standing up for things you believe in. You'll learn to deal with bullshit by showing absolutely no grace. You will yell and fight for the right things.

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You will look at love either as something so far away, or something that hurts a lot. Or maybe somewhere in between. Everyone you know may look like they have it all figured out but you know that's not true. You will try to find less faults in people because you will realize the version of your future spouse for your 13 year old is not the same person you will think of now. You will laugh at how silly your 13 year old self was. You will start to accept that people you love has their own loves and it won't bother you anymore because you yourself has songs that remind you of past loves. 

You will value family but start to realize that they are not what your 8 year old self thought they were. You will realize they are also human and that they have their past regrets and mistakes and they were shaped by their generation and there will be things you don't like about them but at the end of the day those will the learning goals for you. You will start to accept them with faults, not as perfect human beings who will do no wrong. 

and lastly, you will think of yourself a lot more. You will try to always look out for you. You will learn to forgive for what and who you've been. You'll prioritize yourself gracefully and matter of factly and you won't feel sorry for it anymore. You'll learn how important self love is. 

Being 23 was not an easy feat but once you're 24, you'll realize, it's just one more year gone by. You will stop counting things in terms of years but in terms of how it made you feel and how you grew as a person. You'll learn to appreciate everything more. 

Here's to being another year older and hopefully wiser. 24, bring it on. I'm ready and I have all the fire I need. 

Monday, February 15, 2016

Currently: February 2016

In between work and classes and other gazillion things I like to do, I seriously have been lacking in reading or watching but compared to last month I've actually been catching up to my fav shows and reading more books so that's pretty neat. 
Here are what I've been indulging in lately. 

90210 S5 | It's bittersweet because the series is ending but at the same time I'm glad its finally over, all that drama. After Gossip Girl, this was my drama fix and I really love Naomi and have been only following this show for her. Definitely enjoy all the excessive drama. 

Maleficent | Yes, I know. I've only recently gotten around to watching this magnificent movie and it was a blast from the start to end. Angelina was absolutely wonderful in her role and I LOVED the whole thing. I'll probably re-watch it because I can't get enough of it. 

Crazy Ex-girlfriend | I have been getting into a lot of new series and this is one of current favourites. Rebecca is such an adorable person and I love the music numbers in the series. The characters are quirky and funny and it's such a delight to watch this. 

The 5th Wave by Rick Yancey | For Page Turner this month, we are reading this book and so far I think it's average. I'm still not too into the story but I like how it's going. The back and forth and lack of answers/world building bothers me a little. I hope it will pick up pace and excitement. 

The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah | This was last months book club book and I wasn't able to finish reading it but even the start of it is intriguing and I can't wait to finish this wonderful and nice book. I also adore Hannah's writing style. 

Sanam Teri Kasam Soundtrack | This movie isn't out yet but very few movies makes me want to check their soundtarck before the release but after seeing the trailer and sort of falling in love with a song in it, I had to get the entire soundtrack and all the songs are absolutely a joy! I have been playing this non-stop. 

What is keeping you entertained?

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Re-reading Orwell with Context

Hi all. The following is a brilliant piece of writing by my Level 4 friend Mahid. He's a Conan loving typical engineering student with a penchant for using big words and is most known for his big hair. 

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I first read Animal Farm when I was 18 years old. I was unaware of George Orwell’s work and its lasting significance in geopolitics of the modern world. I also did not know anything about the Russian Revolution which is so wittily and meticulously satirised in Animal Farm. After having recently read a book by Abraham Ascher on The Russian Revolution I decided it was time I revisited the book.

With the second reading of the novel came the realisation that the pigs, Snowball and Napoleon were taking the roles of the revolutionaries Trotsky and Stalin. The former was a strict adherent to socialist ideals of Karl Marx, represented by Old Major in the book, but as his party gained power, he made devastating compromises on his ideals to the extent that the first principles were almost forgotten. Trotsky is described by Ascher as a remarkable orator and capable of uniting the agitated and the disenchanted. Stalin, after the revolution, climbed the ranks of the Bolshevik party through cunning and manipulation despite lacking any noteworthy charm. It was his brute that came in handy as he staged show trials and disposed his political rivals by exile or execution.

The Russian Revolution which began as a bold experiment to instil true Marxist communism after the removal of Tsar Nicholas II (Mr Jones of the Manor Farm), was disfigured into a Bolshevik obsession to gain ultimate and lasting power over the empire where dissent was deemed treason and dealt with using bayonets. Marxist doctrine was altered and reinterpreted to fit the Leader’s vision of a utopian state. In fact Marx’s Economic and Philosophic Manuscripts of 1844, published posthumously, were suppressed in the post-revolutionary Russia. I doubt that the Stalinists appreciated the irony.  

In 1984, Orwell describes this as the infection of socialism with the vulgar utopianism. Utopia, almost by definition, is a soulless notion. Promises are made about the absolute eradication of all human suffering, leading to infinite happiness. By assuming and imagining a future where there are no more grievances, it becomes possible to justify any atrocities committed in the apparent pursuit of that future. In essence this was the philosophy of the Soviet Union and the provisional government that preceded it. Ironically the end result was in effect the recrudescence of Tsarist Russia where Stalin, the Leader, ruled with an iron fist and an elite class enjoyed a hedonistic life while the peasant majority starved. The pigs and the farmers had become indistinguishable.

"By assuming and imagining a future where there are no more grievances, it becomes possible to justify any atrocities committed in the apparent pursuit of that future."

While the novel does not tell us what became of Snowball, Trotsky found refuge in Mexico after he was exiled from Russia. Stalin not content with having his colleague exiled, and attempting to tarnish and diminish him further by issuing revised writings of the revolution, used the Secret Police to bribe a Mexican communist who attacked Trotsky in his study, hacking him to death.

Both Animal Farm and 1984 draws a lot from the Russian Revolution. The former has been described as satire on the period, solely because the totalitarian nature of what came out of the revolution could only be satirized by removing it from the human experience.  Any personal account of life under a totalitarian regime is bound to instil crippling fear –as 1984 does - rather than induce laughter.

Unlike the Stalinist Russia, what the Big Brother of 1984 achieves is far beyond the collectivisation of food. It is the collectivisation of thought itself. All music, poetry, and literature originate from the top and is distributed to the lower parts of the hierarchy. The result is the utter decimation of individuality, personal aspirations and thought, while flooding the society with faceless, nameless entities who speak not with the brain but with the larynx, as the novel describes. The mind becomes so disjoint from reality that it cannot be convinced that it is oppressed let alone asked to stand up against it.

The law that was passed not long ago by the Majlis, stating that all literary content should first be vetted by the government before being distributed or published, was very reminiscent of everything we would describe as “Orwellian”. The Youth Ministry (we will never find out how the onus fell on them) later issued a statement saying that social media was conveniently exempted from the law. I can only suspect that this exception was less of a testament to the government’s leniency but more of a realisation that the law would be impossible to enforce on the internet.

"You are asked to love the cruelty dictated on to you by the regime, leaving us with the the ugliest doublethink one can conceive and the worst form of denigration and abjection of the human spirit."

In essence, 1984 is about love. The snatching away of genuine love to be replaced by compulsory love, extorted from the subjects under the threat of torture and humiliation. You are demanded to love the Big Brother, while simultaneously fearing him. You are asked to love the cruelty dictated on to you by the regime, leaving us with the the ugliest doublethink one can conceive and the worst form of denigration and abjection of the human spirit.


Thank you Mahid for so eloquently putting this into words. 

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Sunshine and Rain

Sometimes I write poetry. I'm not very good at it but I need words; words are all I've got. Here's a little poem about sunshine and rain; or more like two people who are like sunshine and rain.


Maybe I'll post some more poetry but I don't think I'm ready to let the world see my words. Posting this took a lot of courage. 

Saturday, January 2, 2016

How to get more productive this new year

I am always on the lookout to increase my productivity and get more things done (which is what I tell myself when I eat dinner while catching up with TV shows, haha). The last couple of years I've sort of come to terms with a system that works really well for me (and I am constantly tweaking it to fit the ever changing tasks I do). 

1. Having a planner


This is a no-brainer for me because I love writing things down and I forget things plus if I note them down in my phone its unlikley for me to check it again. My planner set-up for this year is a week on 2 pages (so you see the entire week) and every weekend, I fill the next week with what I have to do (appointments, meetings, classes, to-do lists etc) so I know to never double-book myself. It also helps to keep a track of what I've been doing which is great for reflection and cutting things off to do list is motivational. 

2. Plan out your day the night before


I have a list app in my phone which is like a to-do list so I plan my day (pretty much every half-an hour) so I can fit the maximum amount of things in a day and also can feel pretty organized throughout. I find it easy to fit in time with friends and family int his format and planning the night before means by the morning my day is already planned and I feel super productive the whole day. 

3. Divide big tasks into bite-sized tasks


This is such a big help at work. I feel that I keep pushing the bigger things for later and always procrastinate on them so I started listing down all the small things I need to do in order to finish a huge task and it helps! That way I can finish some of it one day, another couple on the next day and so it doesn't feel too heavy and it helps in minimizing my procrastination. It works really well for assignments too (just start with things like finding reading materials, reading them, taking notes, drafting, writing chapter by chapter, reviewing, etc and in no time you'd have finished about 80% of it and wont have to do everything the last minute. 

4. Keep a track of the work you do at work/college


This is so helpful to me, seriously. I have an excel sheet where I keep tabs of every task I did that day just a list of everything so I can always check back and remember what day I did what. It also helps if you deal with customers so you can give them exact day that you attended to their call, etc. Just use Ctrl+F to find whatever and bam, you have it. I love it so so much and will continue doing it this year too. 

5. Take mini-breaks 


This is again something so important because the more you keep doing the same thing, the more exhausting it will get, so after every 45 minutes, I'll take a 10-15 min break and just read or make tea and drink it, anything but the work and by the time I finish and go back to finishing the work I would feel more energized. It's such a great tip if you're at a desk job sitting down all the time. 

I hope this year you become more productive and keep striking through your to-do list! How do you keep organized?

Friday, January 1, 2016

2015 in a Nutshell

I do posts like these pretty much every year and its a great look back on all the great memories. You can check by 2014 posts HERE. 

Last year was a year of so many adventures. Honestly, I had a brilliant year. 
Keeping with my tradition of giving new year gifts to the 10 people who made my last year, I made personalized notebooks for friends and it was such a fun experience.

   
Then a bunch of my friends threw me a surprise party! (my first surprise party not by parents hahaha) It was such a blast with the fake snow and rounds of two truths and a lie. 


Then there were trips to islands on workshops. I always love outreach programs and forever grateful when I get to volunteer or take sessions. Travelling is one of my favourite things ever. 


How can I forget about Twitsal? It was this futsal competition and it was my first time actually playing in it. It was a blast. 


I was featured in a magazine! AHH good times. Thanks so much to the team at Veekly. It was nice hanging out with them and answering questions. 


I started making book reviews on YouTube which was fun. I'm hoping to continue this year too. My love for books just got ten times more intense, hahaha
MMKF was another fun trip that I'm so glad for. 


The highlight of my year was Eid trip because it was so much fun and I had a great time with my friends celebrating Eid.

So, here's to more fun stuff this year. I hope your year was filled with love, friendship, family and adventure. 
Here's to a fantastic year! 

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

What 2015 Taught Me

If I had to sum of the last 4 years in what it taught, here's how it would go

2011 - Not being selfish
2012 - Giving back to society
2013 - Going after my passion
2014 - Being kind to strangers

and this year; oh what a roller coaster it has been.

2015 you've broken my heart. You've shown me how vulnerable I really am, that how much I still cannot control things that happen to me. You made me fall in love with someone and then shown me how heartbreak is not as romantic as they show in Hallmark movies, that there is no happy ending to it, that it happens to even the best of us. You showed me that it hurts and the funny thing is in 2013  I had asked god to let me experience any kind of heartbreak because I thought I was dead inside, and little did I know 3 years later, you'd do exactly that. It was messy and terrible and it took me most of the year to try to come to terms with it. 


2015 you've given me lifelong friends and I can't be thankful enough. I already had such amazing friends and I thought that was the best I could get and you've proven me wrong by adding some beautiful people into my life. How amazing is it to be surprised with new people with diverse interests and their own little victories and life stories.


2015 you've made my faith in people stronger. I've seen friends do great things, go after their dreams, fall in love, fall out of love, get heartbroken, get depressed. You've shown me just how human we are and I love it. Thank you for letting me become a part of people's happiness and sorrows. You have no idea how much it means to get to be a part of someone else's life. You've showed me people can be so so much better and that they actually are. You always surprise me that despite how many people break my trust, how many more gain it every year.



2015 you've been both so kind and so terrible at the same time it's not even funny. I have lost count of all the time you've made me laugh and cry, how much you've broken me and yet healed me. The thing is, you learn from so many things and a year later you find that it has shaped you; for the better or worse and you can only hope it's not the latter. I'm so ready for this year to end because I can't wait for 2016! I have so many plans and so much lessons to learn. 


Overall, despite everything terrible, I'm also glad for so so much great things that happened in 2015 (and is to happen in the next few days!). Thank you for adding another 12 months life into my days! Let's hope 2016 is a year of bravery; of letting my walls down and trusting people more; of rebuilding my faith and giving back; of new adventures and climbing higher.

Monday, December 21, 2015

Favourite Books I Read in 2015

Ah year end, what better time than now to talk about some of my favourites I read the last 12 months.
In no particular order here goes. 

Wonder by RJ Palacio
Definitely one of the best books I've ever read. So heartwarming and it makes you rethink everything about little boys who look different than other little boys.









Two timelines, two stories, two women, one painting. LOVED this book, the writing style and how the stories intertwined. I did enjoy the part set in first world war a lot more.








And the Mountains Echoed by Khaled Hosseini

Would I ever be bale to read a Khaled Hosseini book and not love it? Probably not. I did have minor problems with too much characters in this book but overall just loved it so much.









Ah books, adventure, secret missions? YES, YES and YEAHHH. This book was such a thrilling ride and I was hoping for so much more. In fact, I'm sad that this is a stand-alone book. 

This book was closely in line with Khaled Hosseini's work but it has a much bigger impact on me. I love that it took place in just five days but it managed to teach the history of Chechnya and the book was heartbreaking but also hopeful. It's not really an easy read but you'll be a better person for having read it. 





Life of Pi by Yann Martel
I knew I was going to love this book but I just didn't know how much (very much!) and I was so right. Brilliant coming of age story and the background into religion, zoo keeping and philosophy was an added bonus. Thrilling page turner. LOVED the movie too.








The Color Purple by Alice Walker
I found this book in the library and have seen so many good reviews about it and I was a bit shocked with the language but once I got over it, it was such a good read. Tear jerking, emotional and sometimes just downright cruel, the story was compelling and I was hooked.








The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
Ah, my very first ever Paulo book and I loved it to pieces. The story was beautiful and the writing was what kept me going. It was both sweet and happy the feeling this book gave me.









Digital Fortress by Dan Brown
Also my very first Dan brown book ever (also his first book) and it was fast paced and I lvoed the coding and the action. These kind of books are some of my favourites. Enjoyed it very much. 









and since we are on the topic here are 3 books I didn't particularly like. 

The Goldfinch by Donna Tartt
This book was getting so raved about I went in and got it but it was such a bore and the wrost hting is that it would pick up and pace and I would get into it but then it would disappoint. I did enjoy the parts about the painting and the theory about art but overall, I just found it very boring, especially for a Pulitzer Prize winner







A Grown Up Kind of Pretty by Joshilyn Jackson
This book's premise was just so interesting and the cover was so pretty but boy did this book just make me sad. It was pretty lame. I don't even want to talk about this book. NO.









Landline by Rainbow Rowell
How did a Rainbow Rowell book end up of my least favourites? I KNOW. I'M SO SAD cos I had such high expectations for this book and I love yellow rotary phones but I definitely did not like this book no matter how much I wanted to! UGH. 

What books did you love in 2015? What didn't you like?

Thursday, December 17, 2015

#HaveeruMovieTitles

Every now and then the Maldivian twitter scene breaks into something fun like battle of the avah, Spread wars and Yaamyn's profile picture decree. Yesterday, a new hashtag was born #HaveeruMovieTitles thanks to Haveeru and their clickbait article where they literally translated a movie title. Clearly, this is something Haveeru often does as the #TranslateLikeHaveeru suggests.

Here are some of my favourites. 

We all need a little Angelina Jolie to spice up our life
Here's a superhero who's obsessed with sugar
Baa Baa Black Sheep?
This title cannot be any clearer
When your obsession with jewelry is too high
Keynu you not?
When you get your shrinking spells wrong
All these paper people with their paper lives, ugh
Ofcourse nothing would ever be complete without Harry Freaking Potter making a scene
When you have to write party invitations and you only remember the guy's name
When you're so bad at dancing, it should be illegal
Now I know why I'm afraid of hiking
This is gonna be us when we're old and grumpy
When your sister is mad at you and won't stop hitting ugh
When you're really mad at someone but they're already dead
Is this a trick question?
Some heroes live in the dark ages
Don't you just wanna do this to people all the time?
When you break your fast and the only food there is dates, ugh
I can't even
This is when you're just so done you don't feel a thing
You mean another name for Maldives according to old people?
Pinterest crazies always need some dhalhu in their life
and here's three in a list, woohoo
Your parents probably said this at some point in your childhood.
and ofcourse I can't end this post without adding some of mine

How did twitter react to this? Some were so glad this happened


and others were sad they missed it which was surprising considering it went on for more than 10+ hours
Overall, it was such a happening day, all thanks to Haveeru. I'm glas it inspired me to get out of my blogging hiatus to bring you this. 

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

Currently: September 2015

Ahh, what a busy month this has been so far. The good thing is I started keeping up to date with series. I used to be the kind of person who watched stuff only once the season is over. Now I'm the kind who keeps up with the shows as soon as they come out. I'm still settling to this new way and it's hard. This is what has been keeping me busy this month.



The Astronaut Wives Club S1 | Ever since I heard of the book and that it was made into a TV show, I had to watch it. I love everything vintage and 1950's and this is just perfect. I also have a new found appreciation for astronomy and space related things so this was just calling my name. 

Full House S6 | I do love shows with kids in them and who can ever forget this classic show? I feel like Myra, Mick and I are Stephanie, Michelle and DJ. It's such a blast to watch together and I adore all the clothes, hair and the PG rated jokes. 

Into the Woods | I am a sucker for fairy tales, Disney, Meryl, Anna Kendrick and Jhonny Depp so obviously I enjoyed this movie. It was so jolly and amazing with so many cool twists and basically such a wonderful time. 

To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee | This is my favourite fiction of all time, and for this month's Page Turners Book Club, we are reading it. I'm so excited to get back into adventures with Scout, Jem and Dill. 

The Astronaut Wives Club by Lily Koppel | The book that the TV show is based upon. I'm reading along (but watching the show before) so I get to see the characters as the actresses in my head while I read and it's written very beautifully. 

WILD by Troye Sivan | Troye has such a hauntingly beautiful voice it would be injustice not to hear it over and over again. I just got this from my friend Abo and have been listening non-stop. 

What's keeping you entertained this month?

Thursday, September 10, 2015

Perks of Dating Mal Reynolds

Thanks to my friend Jooz & Hishko, I got hooked on to Firefly. It's such an amazing show and definitely did not deserve to get cancelled (I'm very mad that it didn't get renewed) and I would always enjoy anything that Nathan Fillion is in. He's a bad-ass captain and definitely a complex character who always looks out for his crew and ship. Here is why he would make for a wonderful significant other. 

1. Once he commits, he's in forever. 


Just like him and Serenity, you'll know that he believes in your ship and won't let you explode into nothing-ness. 

2. He always gives the best advice


He will make you completely independent and teach you great life lessons so you won't have to depend on him or anyone else.

3. He's not the kind to give you up. 


You can go around the galaxies in Serenity and spend forever in adventures and you'll know he'll have your back because he's a forever kinda guy; and honestly every girl deserves a forever kinda guy. He'll fight the reavers for you!

4. He's a total bad boy


and I know you can't resist a bad-ass guy who isn't afraid to be devilishly up to no good. You need some darkness in your life for balance and Mal will bring it. Also your relationship will never lack spice. 

5. He can rock a floral bonnet


How many men can you honestly name that can rock a floral bonnet and skill kick-ass? If this isnt reason to date someone, then I don't know what is. 

6. He will always look after you even if you don't want him to. 


He cares and despite all that hard outer shell, you know he's a soft sentimental guy and honestly isn't that just the best kind. He's the best of both worlds and makes Hannah Montana jealous. 

7. He's got style


and groove. Suspenders and brown coats are so space-chic and Mal Reynolds can pull off a mean fashion statement that makes all other galaxies look like peasants in comparison. 

Watch Firefly and Serenity to catch Mal in action and get ready to fall in love again with a character only to have your heartbroken because you can't get enough of him!

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Baskin-Robbins always find out.

Last month, my friend Niu and I went to see Ant-Man. Anyone who knows me knows that I'm not a fan of action movies but I was looking forward to this movie for the longest time because of Paul Rudd. I've been a fan of him since Mike Hannigan and will always watch anything he's in. 



The movie was absolutely amazing. Of course it was filled with action and lots of cool geeky stuff like references to other movies and it was so funny. The Mexican guy stole the show with his storytelling and most of it, I enjoyed the story line. 

The parts where he's tiny and moving across, overcoming obstacles and challenges were both nerve-wrecking and exciting to watch. I definitely loved them the most and I was able to get by the action (still not a fan of the fights, no matter how cool some moves are, I appreciate it but don't enjoy it) with minimal discomfort so that was a plus. 

Do get it on BluRay or DVD because Paul was amazing in it and it's one of the better action movies I've watched this year. Funny despite how much I dislike action movies, I tend to go to them because Schwack brings a lot of action movies and all my friends are a fan of them haha

Rating:4/5